Tell me all the dreams that you have let
Slip right through your hands
Do you feel lost inside of someone else's life?

And we're not gonna live forever
Can you tell me if it's now or never
I'm not gonna make up your mind
I don't want to live without you
And I don't want to live a lie
We'll never know 'til we try

Failure is the only way to learn
'til you've come undone
The rest we'll never find out
What they might have been

And we're not gonna live forever
Can you tell me if it's now or never
I'm not gonna make up your mind
I don't want to live without you
And I don't want to live a lie
We'll never know 'til we try

So tell me sometime just where did we go wrong?

And we're not gonna live forever
Can you tell me if it's now or never
I'm not gonna make up your mind
I don't want to live without you
And I don't want to live a lie
We'll never know 'til we try

~ Lifehouse ~ We'll Never Know ~

I was thinking this song reflects what someone should tell me.
Why am I a coward?

I'm sad because I am losing my best friend. I have tried so hard to seek your approval and with time I thought things would change. Sadly, they haven't. I need to tell you the truth because it is tearing me up inside. I love him. I want you to love him too, but I know that that won't be easy for you at first. With time, I only hope that you will see the love in those eyes I do every time I look into them. I feel that I must take a stand in what I believe in in order to take control of my life. Whether we end up together or not, I am the only one who can make these decisions. I cherish your advice, but if you love me you should want to get to know the person I am interested in.
Please understand that this is really difficult for me because I love you very much. I don't want another person to come between our relationship. I want to tell you everything and I need you to listen without judgment. This is more than just a discussion about my best friend, it is a discussion about my ability to make decisions in life. I can't grow and become the confident woman I need to be if I have to check with you before I make a decision.
I know I will continue to seek your advice about many things, but I will make the ultimate decision. This is for the best.
I can only hope that this will strengthen our relationship.

I have decided to change my life.


God please give me the courage I need to complete this difficult task.